30 Hours
That's how long I've gone without a wink of sleep.
I'm tired.
I've never pulled an all-nighter with my babies. Apparently I was due. Gabriella was not having it last night no matter how long or how much we rocked or shushed. Oh, she'd fall asleep alright but once we set her down in the bassinet, she'd stir and start to cry. I've never felt my heart drop so fast in those moments where I'd get comfy in bed and hear her rousing. Co-sleeping didn't even do the trick.
On a typical night the little lady sleeps about 4 1/2 hours in her bassinet and is usually up between 2 and 3 am. That's when we nurse and snuggle in bed together for the rest of the night. I cherish those four hours of sleep. They are precious and priceless to me because you know the saying "sleep when baby sleeps"? Yeah...not so much when you have another child to take care of. If I don't sleep at night, I don't sleep. Period.
Around 4:00 I knew all hope was lost so I moved to the living room to watch TV. When the morning news showed a picture of today's sunrise, that's when I lost it. I started crying right here on my couch. I was SO TIRED. I kept thinking of last night and how I could barely keep my eyes open watching Modern Family and yet, here I was 8 hours later wide awake with no opportunity to close my eyes.
I guess this is just another part of mommy-hood. One day Gabriella will let me sleep. But until then, man, I'm tired.
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That sounds just horrific, girl. I've never had to go without at least a couple hours of sleep since becoming a parent. And how rough with no hubby at home to help you when he's on a shift.
I'm very sorry and I hope you get to get some good sleep very soon!! I'm thinking of you.
**hugs**
Hope both the babies spontaneously slumber and you can catch up on some zzzz's
I feel your pain. My little man was the exact same way as a newborn. Hang in there, mama!
Oh YUCK. I'm sorry friend, and I hope you get at least a few hours of shut-eye soon!
Gosh..thank you so much for your honest posts. I have a six month old and am currently 8 weeks pregnant, so I see myself in this same boat in the near future. Your true to life posts are encouraging. Hang in there. They don't stay infants forever ^_^
Uggg I totally feel your pain. Preston is now 11weeks old (we should have delivered close to you but he came six weeks early) and he still has HORRIBLE sleep habits. I can remember some days/nights where sleep was elusive and just crying....You have got a sympathetic ear here
As far as Co-sleeping, I think it is a personal decision. Preston is my 3rd little miracle. My oldest son spent a lot of time in our bed as he was so sick and wanted to be comforted. Our second child liked to sleep on her own and slept very happily in her bassinet until ready to nurse and then right back in the bassinet and eventually crib she went. Preston is doing similar to what you are doing with Gabriella, he gets a four hour or so chunk of time in his own bed, and then comes in bed with us. I agree with you that it is different for each child. I also believe that the SIDS deaths weren't solely from "CO sleeping" and that there is more to the story than that. I wake up if Preston wiggles his toes, so I don't know how people miss something happening unless there is something else going on....
So sorry to hear about your lack of sleep! I never had this problem with both my girls, but I do have a suggestion for you...
mind you, some people are against this option because of the risk of the baby getting "used" to sleeping this way, but have you tried a swing? I would put my youngest in her swing in the morning after her first feeding and she would sleep anywhere between 2-3 hours!
i used to own a battery operated swing, but i eventually traded up to one with an ac plug-in and it is fabulous! it's a graco winnie the pooh one that i got at wal-mart for like $120...not too bad in my opinion! hope this helps!
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